tonight.

I feel like I am being faced with figuring out why I am here.
I think that it is to bring me to the point of wanting to learn more, of desiring to grow, of seeking after bigger answers to bigger questions.
I was too comfortable in my nine to five job with all my Christian friends and never a lack of things to keep myself busy.
I needed to get away from that.
It’s not easy…
But I am at the place of wanting to go to school
and of feeling like that’s where I need to be right now,
where I will find meaning.
I am kind of excited and hopeful.
I kind of want to cry…
I kind of feel like my insides want to come out.
And it makes me want to go to sleep
and make it all go away.

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