(following day specification: it has nothing to do with my feelings for marcus. i love him and care for him very much and that will not be changing anytime soon. if it were up to me, i’d love him for the rest of my life. the change i speak of is more of a view-on-life thing, i guess, an attempt to be more appreciative, perhaps…)
i feel as though some subtle change is happening in my heart. i’m not even sure what it is but it’s in there somewhere. it’s a good shift.