I had a weird meltdown last night. I was at a show and all of a sudden, I felt like I was going to cry. Part of it was that everyone there seemed to know everyone else and there was lots of ‘hello’s and hugging and smiles. And another part of it was for some reason, I felt ugly. I don’t know that I’ve ever felt particularly ugly in my life. I think I have an idea where such feelings might be coming from, but it still seems weird to me, though I don’t necessarily believe them. I had even purposefully tried to look cute but it didn’t work very well, apparently. Another part might have been that all the music seemed really sad. And maybe it was because I had been thinking about a lot that day and asking myself a lot of questions. Maybe it was just one of those moments where everything feels overwhelming.